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Thursday, October 2, 2008

Graduation Picx

Lets talk bout CAT graduation day..
hmm, what should i say bout da day?
da day begin with i kept on imagining that i will fall off the stairs on the graduation stage..
Yeah i know its really weird imagination.. But i kept on thinking wht if i fall off the stage? what
will happen next? Its gonna super embarssing for sure.
but anyway i didnt fall off the stage le.
hmmm.. to summarise the whole graduation thingy,

it was really tiring,
i had sore feet,
headache
, they provided yucky food and
boring speech that i almost fall a sleep and
the graduation hall was darn cold.
but for all the negative stuff i mention above, there's one thing i did enjoy lots and

thats cam-whoring time!!

Sry.. for the delay...But this is Our Graduation Pictures..













thats all the group picz. I lazy to upload all other pictures le.. cus there are lots and lots more!!!

Monday, September 29, 2008

finally PT2 its over!!

yaaHOOO!!
PT2 its over..
Darn right i am HAPPIE!
well, at least for now.
hmm, what i wanna do leh, for this one week?
-shopping :P
-watch movie ( eagle's eye)
-catch up with friends
-spend some 'me' time
-sleep.. i really need lot and lots of sleep
-bake brownie. (chococheese brownie)
-jamming
-Online more often
-study law, mock 2weeks after raya
-F5 and F6.. mock is in 2weeks time after raya.
-go Pre-U? see first la..not at the top of my list
-cook food. wut food?
-go joging with mum


hmm..yeah hohohoh holiday!!!

Friday, September 12, 2008

51%, 33% and 64%

i got my progress test 1 result and the marks are not that impressive especially my f5 paper.. i failed. :(
sometimes i really wonder will i ever get through this time? i may graduate from CAT but will i ever graduate from ACCA (in my targeted time?)

but at least i pass my law paper and tax in my test.. but i doubt i will pass law in pt2. its really hard and lots to memorise. :( I really wanna make it thru . I really want to but sometime the future is just so unclear for me.

sigh..and the 33%? i hope i will make it thru for pt2 this time for f5.
well i may not blog as often as last i used to. really bz and
i really need a life..

i really do.. i really hope i will make it thru this paper for my finals.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Beware! if ur intention is to criticize this post then DONT READ THIS!!

I was in Emerge yesterday.It was not in my list of intention to go for Emerge 08 tho its like already a culture for me to go every year for 3nights. But seriously, it was a last minuite thing that i decided to go.

But i am glad that i did went there.

There is something special with the people over there and that is Passion for God and also live. Yeah, and it is also something that have gone missing from me for a very long time. I tried many ways to find back things that have gone missing from me but somehow i still just cant find it.

Whole evening at Emerge really kept me thinking where is my passion for God? Where's my passion to do the things that i really love? The more God convince me of his presence, the more i walk away from it.. there just so much i questions in my head that i am dying to ask and really want to express my feelings.

I remember that i used to express my feelings freely and there is always someone who will help me throught it either directly or indirectly but somehow now everythings change. I Just cant simply tell people the confusion i am going through and frustration i am in

And what more if it is a spritual one!

And yeah Emerge was awesome! but i only when for the last night. So, Pastor Kong didn preach yesterday but there is a few celebreties gave their testiomonies 2 are taiwaniese and 1 from Hong Kong.

The testimony from HK was from Fung Bo Bo. ( your parents might know who is that) she is really famous in her time and yeah, her testimony was really impressive yesterday. I was in tears when i heard her testimony.

Later after her testimony, there was an alter call for non christian and back-slidders. And yep, that the one for me, i knew it. Somehow, i know deep inside of me that i really wanted to go back to God. For me, its like really long time i didn go out for an alter call but i know yesterday somehow i need to step out from my sit and go out.. i always been running away from alter calls that i know it is meant for me.

And yeah again, i went out... I know God's presence is there and i could feel his tenderness of his love for me. I could feel God's hug and that moment was like all problems just flush away from me and all i really wanted was to reconcile back with God..

but somehow there is always confusion in me. I really dont know. Somehow i just know that if i continue the state i am in now i will never move on to the next level. What i meant was wheter i should just change church??

I just dont know. Sometimes i just dont feel that i just belong there anymore And i need a place that i feel belong there. My parents always says that," You know, now a days u dont really and regularly attend church anymore and you've change alot ever since u did that, what's becoming of you?'' are you even still a christian cus u are not acting like one''


That word really hurt me like a knife that cut my heart. I mean how could my parents be so not understanding? They didn even ask me or intent to find out the reason why and just jump into a conclusion.

Of course i do have a cg and i hav accountable partner but again i am not regular there and i am not even close to him or her and deffinately its stupid to tell that person my problems cus its not like he or she could be of any help.. So dont make assumtion that i always go CG with that someone dosent mean that we are buddies , i go CG with him or her is because i needed one and if i dont go CG and again they will relate me wit XYZ!!

And i dont have to explain why cus nobody will understand anyway. All they could just think of is because of XYZ.. well the answer is yes and no. Yes is when i am in my previous cell, i fell like home and belong. but now no! after most of them have move on, i dont feel belong there anyway.

Like yesterday in Emerge i saw some church people and they are like so darn unfriendly. Didnt even bother to say hi, when they saw you! Common, its not like we don know each other.. Or as if so. Maybe sometimes i really do think after you are not close there anymore, they will just act as if that they dont even know you! What a shame!

Sometimes i really think that a non christian is better than a christian.. and that is they are much more friendlier and real. and not being plastic aka just being nice because they have to!! I used to think that christians are the best people to be around with but i was totally wrong.. I remember someone i used to look up too also wrote in his blog tht Non christian are better than christians..

but not all of course just some!!

yeah, i you are wondering, I am really frustrated to bear with all this crap. I just cant be who i wanna b there. And if i continue on like this i know i will surely turn away from God.

It also like i dont want to invest in some thing that i know i will never reap a profit in it.It wil be totally waste of time.

And i dont want this to happen cus i am really tired of just forcing myself to do things i dont want to do and to be commited to a place that where my heart has left!

I am giving everything a try, hoping that things will finally change but somehow i just know that my heart dont belong there anymore. I know not all people there is like that but still most of them i know are partly or wholly like that.

Anyway, is just partly of the things i bloged.. theres just to much private stuff that it is inappropriate to blog here.. I never intended to hurt anybody's feeling indirectly and if i did then sorry..

It just part of expressing my feelings on blog and in blog you can write anyting you want.. but i dont mean to hurt anybody..

and thats the reason why i told you not to read this post!!!

Friday, August 29, 2008

PT 1 its over!!

Yey!!PT1 its over..
at least i could enjoy my moment of deja vu for a while
before i will be buried with my books

so far during pt1, not bad la i can do my Law paper!!
and i am happy that i can answer all the question but markah itu i duno la
then the suckiest wan is F5.. performance management, i totally skrew da paper
yeah part of me like so lazy to study..
cus i was like aiya.. jus CVP, Pricing, ABC and ZBB.. sure can do wan!!
but then BItch la.. i totally skrew it all up.. dang!!
i shuden and never take things for granted..
i never felt so frust b4 in my CAT life.. tho got some of it is hard la..like audit which i will never get a clue of it at least i could write something and pass
but F5 i cant calculate it at all..tho i can answer the theory still
i really going to fail for my this test
GOSH... why did i ever enter this stupid course?
its like an never ending stress...
everytime when i achieve something but i still cant grab whole of it fully
gosh!!!
aigh!!
sorie its just moments of frust for not being able to do my test well!!
but F6 tax. is kinda good tho..
but also duno the marks la
usually in acca really weird wan
u tot u pass but in reality u fail!!

aiya dun wanna think bout it for the next one or two days..
I am going shopping tomorrow!!
hmmm... lets think ..
what should i buy??
shopping list.. for graduation nite
-waistbelt black in color wan
- heels with slinge- 3 inch
-bag..gold or red?
-make up-black and wite eye shadow
-necklace from diva!!

Must go shops!!
-Diva
-Nose
-Vincci
-Nichie
-Subway (eat la)
-Warehouse
-the lala shops aka Asian Avenue
-sub zero
shops that i cant really think of it rite nw!!
but i cant wait for tomorrow
and tomorrow nite got wedding dinner summore!!


yay!!drink till we get drunk and shout merdeka!! and suffer 2days later...

Monday, August 18, 2008

I passed

OMG.. I have pass my CAT.

finally!!PHEW!! after 24 hours of worries and nervousness finally it has come to an end and i can eat with peace again!! At least for awhile before i will be stress up again for my ACCA!!

but yeh, now i can officially graduate from CAT and i cant wait for my graduation day!!but CAT its only just the beginning of real stress and in ACCA will be alot more stress and working life will be even worst.


and from now onwards i really have to study really hard and take things seriously and no more last min.!!

finally it feel like i am alive again.. cus before checking my result i felt like fainting and really nervous and i shiverred in class and even when i go on9 using my HP to check my result.. i kept on entering the wrong add and id. My hands shiverred as i was clicking..

and when finally when i passed , i shouted," OMG i pass''.. and i hug my friend..sumore i like saying it so darn loud that alot of ppl in the library turn and look at me!!

hmm.. but anyway i really thank God that i pass le, cus without Him (God) i dun think i can really cope with it and seriously, before finals.


God really gave me a peaceful mind to study especially for my Audit paper cus seriously i dont have a clue bout it at all especially i cannot focus in class and alwis ponteng my audit class but i did self study at home la but still then i wasn that confident when doing Audit exam

but i decided to surrender everything to God and lay all my papers at His feet and just do my best.. so yeah, to God be all Glory.
Thank you so much!!!

anyway i really gotta eat d.. super hungry men..i haven eat since last night dinner lolz

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I will be here by Steven Curtis Chapman

( i found out this song and its really nice and meaningful) well, i post the song in my bloggie n here is da lyric below!!)


Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
Cause I, I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
Cause I will be here
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
I, I will be here
And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here