tagged by Bianca..

Instructions : Remove ONE question from below , and add in your personal question , make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list , list them out at the end of this post . Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged .Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all .
1. Are u hot tempered?
-- OopSs..its confession time.. yes, i am (quite la i guess)


2. What's is/are your talent(s)?
--good taste( winks),creative and a little musically incline. hehe..


3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
--Itali, ohh yeah.. its sexy and romantic ^_^


4. friends or family ?
-- can i choose both ar? but i will go with family le..


5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
--Yeah i do.. it always reminds me of God's covernant with Noah.. that that he will never flood the whole earth again.. :D


6. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
--friends.. without them, i will be a loner.. :(


7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
-- of course shopping,shopping and shopping, and launch my own music album!!!


8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
-- He confess to me first la..it would be a turn off to sum guy if girls make the first move..


9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-- Bianca, friendly, straight forward and fun.. luv me gurl..


10. What are the requirement(s) that you wish from your other half?
-- he will have to be a christian,plays at least one musical instrumance ( if he sings that would be hawt!!),makes good impression and at least have little good taste ( so can be my shopping buddy!!)


11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
-- i dont hate anybody.. but i dislike really annoying people .


12. How much u love your friends?
--very much..higher than the sky and deeper than the ocean.. chehwa..konnonnya la.. but seriously i do love them lots.. ( say awwwhhh...)


13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or wound you rather they keep
quiet?
-- haha it would depands.. but if what ppl say is the true then i will accept it tho the truth hurts..:)


14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-- err..almost everything..


15. If there's an option, what would u like to do in the future?
--i will most likely be an accountant d.. but if i have the choice to choose my future i would like to be involve in the music industry or fashion


16. What makes you feel happy?
-- doing my fav. things, hanging out with friends


17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
-- being a perfectionist.. :/


18. What is the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
--that if u got 60 and below in t5 and t8 in CAT, you will most likely to fail twice in ACCA.. omg


19. What makes you feel disappointed?
-- getting not so good result...


20. What are you addicted to?
-- shopping, music, sleeping, movies..

tagged fwens,
-Nithia-
-May Yan-
-Rayven-
-Chin Lee-

its all coming back to me now

hmm.. what i wanna say? sitting down on the edge of my bed , listening to music , suddenly its all coming back to me now. Looking myself in the mirror and i saw this girl, it seems like i used to be her best buddy but now maybe she has change alot. Yeah, maybe part of it she change for the better but i don't seems to know her as i used to be before.

I know, I know, things around her has changed and it is impossible for her not to change. But her spiritual life too? Yeah maybe. or should is say yes? I still remember a friend once told her before that, as you grow older and more mature, it is hard to maintain and to keep the fire burning bright.

She didn believe it at first cus she thought that if her foundation is firm she will never fall and the fire will continue to burn brightly.

hah.. what she say is true but that only apply if she continue to keep her ground firm but what if now that her ground is shakey and unstable and it is hard to keep her feet on the ground? She could just fall anytime. Oh yeah, now she believe what her friend had told her was actually true.

Life for her is not easy at all or should i say, that keeping her foundation firm is not easy at all.By the way, she loves her life, she loves going to college and she loves her friends. but maybe thats the main reason she has changed. college influences. busyness, tiring days , entertainment and all that, has made her drifted away from what and from whom she once loved and passionate about.

maybe, maybe there is still hope if she is willing to change and to start building on her foundation again but still its up to her! There is no more spoon feeding, she has to make her own decision. So what will be her decision? I dont know.

Here is her prayer...
Dear, Lord.
I know that i have changed alot but deep inside of me i dont want my relationship with you to change. I know and realize that things sometimes will never be the same again but still i dont want to lose my relationship with you. Maybe i am lost and i need your guidance, your light to show me the way back to the right path. So if you're there then show it to me even right now.
Amen.

btw.. that girl i am talking about is me..

haha.. read this, funny sia..its a horney tho' lolz

Deleting the past..

soundtracks-how did i fall in love with you by Backstreet boys
-heartbreak lullaby by A*teens
-cry by rihanna
-over yo u by chris daughtry

i need to start deleting my inbox d. gosh, it know its hard but i need to let go.sigh! why am i still thinking of that dude when college got even better guy and more hawtter guy than him? it already almost a year already but some how sometimes i still do think of him..especially when i am listening to those emo songs or his fav. songs. (looking at the inbox nw) and especially now the damn song is playing wait for you by elliot yamin. making me even more emo. now!

i still had those msg that he send to me when i was still in high school.. ironic ryte? i will delete anibody msg except his. tho its like sudah lama wan.. but i am going to delete it to day.tho the msg means lots to me or shud i say in the past it used to be that meaningful to me? i am reading the msges one last time and i am going to delete it.

seriously, i am wondering why sudah like a year in college and there so many more better guys than him but i still cant seems to get over him.. its not like the Praise that i know that get over someone really fast when she meets someone new..lolz (hah..thats me) maybe cus he is the guy that i really into and he it the only guy i cried for when its over (sigh..deleting another msg)

i know this sounds really stupid.. i wanted to try to get somebody to replace him.. i tot he made a good replacement but some how i realize at last that i am just using him and that i mayb hurting his feelings also cus somehow for now nobody can take his place cus they are not him...

maybe cus there's lots of sweet memories of us together and thats why its harder to let go but i cant go on like this...i know its totally over and that i should move on with my life, stop wasting time on that dude! sigh..another msg deleted

delete,delete,...delete...delete...delete..delete,delete... and delete,delete..delete...

gosh, sumthing wrong with me la first say i must forget him by deleting all the msges he sent me and now lagi i wrote a lyric without the tune for him..but mayb cus i could express my feelings better in musics and also the lyrics.

so here is the one last song for that guy (hopefully) :

My Last Goodbye

been missing you lately,

been thinking of you

cos ever since that we're apart,

u left me all alone crying,

i tried to control myself

but i sill cant stop but missing you

baby you're still inside my heart

chorus.

cus when i am with you,

cant help falling for you

and everytime you held my hands

i hope that you will never

let it go

all the time we spent together

talking till dawn

baby, if i could

i wanna be by your side

once again...

till then this would be

my last goodbye to you.

i guess thats the whole song, i may add or change the words but i need to find a tune for it first. Sorie its tha way i express my emoness. thru songs..n thats why my songs usually based on feelings.

deleteing again...its time to really forget you.

all your msges being deleted..( it hurts like crap.. but maybe it for the better) hopefully..

talking bout hunkz...

gosh.. sorie le i feel bit retarded today..or shud i say this few days i alwis talk bout boyz in college. and now in the blog.lolz

so far how many or pweety/hawt/notty or sexay dudes i kno in college? still not enough la! heck, why acca so hard to find hawt dudes wan.. got lotsa pweety gurls tho. :) still then the hawtest guy i know in college is none other then Mr.T. darn friggin hawt and sexy too hah.. :P picture perfect.. smart,hawt,handsome. but sad, he is not chinese leh..:( still remember when i had convo. wit him..

T: hey, how r ya?

P: (gettin excited)fine.. just bored sitting in SC .

T: owh.. it aint that bad.. listen to mus ic as u work.. its so cool..

P:yeah.. (smiles)

T:hey u like purple?

P: yup..purple.. who did u know btw?

T: cus u got lotsa purple clothing ( actually i oni had a few)

P:wow.. so u're really observant huh..

T :(sexy smile )u got really nice and white teeth too..

P:(flattered) awwwhh.. thanks

T:how many time you brush it? 5 or 6?

P: nooo..just twice..mayb its genetic lolz.

on and on...

men, i need to stop talking too much bout guys already.

oyah, i forgot i havent bathe yet.lolz need to go bathe now and then start nerding.. just hope i dun fall asleep again lolz.. shud i go for CF camp? tomoro its the last day to let michie know..hmm.. maybe i shud or maybe i shuldn..shud
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