am i making a big mistake?

sigh..seriously i cant believe it that i failed my costing paper in my progress test. i really.. thought that i did quite well and confident that i will get good marks but i really learnt that i shouldn't be too confident and to really read the question properly.

i am really darn sad that i failed cus of sum stupid mistake i made.. all its jus carelessness and not reading the question carefully.. i took things too lightly and it cause me to lose lotsa marks.. just because of careless mistakes nt that i dont know how to do..

but then again this really makes me think again whether do i really wanna become an accountant or auditor in the future. It's not about i feel like giving up now cus i failed for a test.. but its about my future whether its my passion or not.

the truth is that i never like accounting but i have to force myself to like it cus i am studing it. being an accountant was the last option i would choose as my career path. Not only that i felt that myself but my friends and some people around me felt the same thing that i am not accounts type of person..they are nt being mean cus its the fact. Some thought i am more eligibe to become a lawyer or some mass comp or design or music kind of person and accounts is totally oppersite of it.

then why did i choose it? actually cus half of the reason is that i wanna please my parents and another reason cus its more practical than other course i wanna study. i dont see myself as an accountant in future and being one scares me. but i have no other choice cus it alredy the career path that i chose. hopefully i am not making ani mistakes or regret the decision have already made.

sigh.. i really don't know.. i am confuse right now..maybe i shouldnt think so much and just continue with my course and just be an acc when i graduate any way ,accountants pay is quite good tho.but then that would also mean that i need to forgo my passion and my dream job and to stay focus on what i am doing now and to do my best. well maybe its the best soultion to it..

beauty sleep

OMG.. at last i finally got my beauty sleep. Ahh.. but the sad thing is that i cant sleep now.. cus i slept the whole day 2day.. gosh i feel like a pig and my bed is so nice..and i dont want to be separated from it.

and i also havent finish any of my homework yet..but tomoro still can do cus class starts late lolz. or maybe i will do later if suddenly i become rajin. but that rarely happens lolz. cus after blogging i wanna read my CLEO mag.. yeah!! finally Praise is bored of seventeen!! CLEO roxx. i am starting to love CLEO

finally

Finally, finally and finally i done wit da whole moral presentation tinggi. Gosh.. all the hard work, sleepless nights,headache, 'smooky eyes' and its all done now. YAY!!!!but then hack again cus now i have to start studing for finals. gosh, its a never ending of natural smooky eyes though i still prefer the artifical wan.

Sigh, then again before the presentation while i was still at home, i played my guitar. its my anti-stress and anti-depresant drug. well as i was play my guitar, suddenly i broke my pick. and its my fav. one.:( tho i can still buy it but still aku sakit hati la. maybe cus too tension d thats why i ter-broke my pick. blame it all on moral project. Moral subject ca oni for orang tak bermoral la.. i think i am moral enough d lol (ego starts to show!!!)

And then today i swam.. lolx.. so nice to swim la tho hack i cant swim that many labs as i used to last time.. i oni can swim one lab and then break then do another lab.. its not continous want. :( so sad.. i guess i need to swim more la. owh ya, swimming is also one of my anti-depresant drug. I KNO i got lotsa drug.. but good drug.. SHOPPING juga drug saya.. tho i spent lotsa money on that but hey.. I am a gurl and thats wut gurls do THEY SHOP!!! and shop again.

sudah pukul 4am la ni aku mesti pergi tidur..i ve been sleeping darn late lately. thats why now got pimples growing and got 'smooky eyes' d la.. i need lotsa beauty sleep now.. so buzz off i am going to hit the sack now!! ( i am still good in idioms ya KNOOO!!)

wondering...

well,its my second post.. i wanted to change my blog skin but i cant find da skin i wanted.. may be i am alwis picky thats why!! gosh i have to change not to be that picky.

ok fine, change topic..well i was really wondering does everybody change that fast?well i really got no clue bout that..mayb i was still kinda upset when somebody once i really quite look up to and trust change so much..seriously i tot eventho we dont see each other in a long time but sume how at least he should not forget me that fast

thats the reason why i really hate to trust ppl some times..cus they never kept their word. gosh y am i feeling so emo now?? humph... but seriously i really miss that friendship i really wish it dosent have to change.. sometimes it seem lik i dont even know who he is now. owh well, of couse i dont know him now.

well i dont hate him or angry..err or i shud say a lil angry but i dun think i shud blame it all on him it was my fault also cus i didnt maintain the friendship.i was too caught up with my college life and other stuff until i realize that it was too late cause our friendship have drifted apart. somehow i just has this feeling that our friendship can never be as close as last time cause even if i really wanted it to, i think i too late maybe half of the reason is that cause it is better to stay that way. i dont want to be close to a friend who has change so much.. it is much better if we remain as aquaintance.

Gosh.. i am too caught up with those thinking stuff until i forgot its time to bathe.. i need to go and bathe now..

ah..NEw bloG..

Hah..finally i got my new blog..gosh i took real long time ok.. no i mean it took me awhile to create blogspot but before deciding to use blogspot i was using blogdrive and HELL i hate blogdrive..got lotsa problem.
Aniway yeah i know its veri empty but i will update it veri soon..i curi tulang cumming on9 in the mids of studing for my exam 2moro.. so TAK ADA MASA to update everything now.. so ttyl.. AKU NAK PERGI NERDING SKRANG!!